Hai. Today is the last post from me in Friendster blog..so,sit back and read!

 

Last night was a Meki BBQ. well.there were 80++ who were confirmed to join the crowd.

Located near tasik UTP n entrance gate wit lots of parking, i think it is a nice place to hold such event.

Main activities at that nite were makan2 and snapping pictures. i mean lots of pictures!

But i kept my camera cikai in my pocket since there were tons of big fat gigantic cameras being used..

 

“ala. kamera kite nite mode tak lawa la”..

 

There were lots of Mechanical students who showed up last night. I was hungry. so i pay attention more in food than camera.

Makan xbyk pon. Sonok tgk org ..hehe.

 

I thought it will be a boring n just chatting2..but it turned out well..better than i expected. Congrats to the organiser teams!

 

It was tiring.so i sat at pondok..watching people around me .. then i saw..

 

I saw the first person i knew in UTP during orientation who became my close friend for that week.

then i saw my first bestfriend n silatmate during foundation. we always date at tepi2 tasik, sat under a tree..talking about our future,soulmate.we were so close until she got a bf.well, i still love her the way she do.always pray for ur happiness =).

then i saw someone who once i scared most. i remembered giving her all of my cake because our besday were pretty close(not the reason how she looked at my cake.hehe). Now it turned out to be one of my bestest friend now..ngee

then i saw the first person who try to tackle me ..but alhamdullillah., he’s already met ‘the one’. ;)

then i saw someone i know who really change after intern..but i still know the inside of him never change.=) (ni la masalahnye bile da knal lame)

then i saw someone who always shared my feeling together about fyp..How scared it was when we have to deal with that killer examinar each time when there was a presentation. It feels like we were playing “Antara Hidup and Mati” song.haha.

then i saw my ex labmates.. i remembered how red their faces when we’re doing our lab that looks like 18**, but both the girls seems to be so blurr on that day (otak kami bersih lg time tu).

then i saw someone aka my accidental first date mate.(T_T). we both hangout until morning(borak je k).not in kl and perak.it was far than that.I still called it crazy!. well, i planned to have it with my someone i like but though it turned out to be him. i still wanna cry T_T.(rosak plan)

then i saw someone who once became the first closest guy friend that i have in utp.. But now when we met, i felt strange.haha.but still, it’s really sweet knowing you.

 

I saw many people. there were tears..there were anger..there were also sweet and happy moments with them.

I will wrap it beautifully inside my heart. Cause they do not know..how much they change me to be who i am today!

 

Then, i looked at the person beside me. she has seen me crying out loud, she has seen me when i get mad soo baad.. but she still sit beside me until today.to make sure that i smile always..  thank you.

 

Happy Graduation everyone. 

its killing me..

to see people that i love..

gets hurt..

i wish i could take your place..

to share the pain..

i wish i could be a doctor..

to heal your pain..

 

because its just killing me..softly inside..

 

take care.. 

get well soon..

to the queen of my heart.. []

p/s: im glad to see you smile mom~

 

 

counting days in utp.. happy or sad?

AKu Nak NyanYi Kuat2 Ari Ni

 

Bila yang tertulis untukku ..

Adalah yang terbaik untukmu [Exam UNit]

kan Ku jadikan kau kenangan..

Yang Terindah paling sayOr dalam HidupKu..

Namun takkan Mudah BagiKu

Menerima bulat2 keputusan mu

Yang Telah Terukir Abadi

Dalam TimeTable Final SEM aku!!~  T_T

 

Sape sayang UTP angkat tangan ~\o/\o/~

 

 

counting days in utp.. happy or sad?

im thinking of you..

dunno what to do..

im scared..what shud i do..

what shud i say..

to make sure you know..

i always care..and we are always do..

 

p/s: 1234 

[my mind is blank.just thinkingofyou. getwellsoon!]  xoxo

mase aku intern, ade budak ni datang dr ‘langit ketujuh’ mane ntah duduk d sbelah ak semasa ak cbuk menulis dibuku catatan harian ku..

” buruk nye tulisan. tak mcm pompuan”..

aku terkesima..selama 22 tahun aku idup..ta penah lagi org berkata begitu. 

” jujurnya ko. aku terharu~ ” .. ujarku smbil menahan tangan aku yg dah gatal nak tumbuk bahu dia..

nape tulisan aku buruk? haha. sebab aku kidal. 

It can be difficult for left-handed children to learn to write if the teacher does not take the student’s left-handedness into account- taken from wikipedia..

 

tahu x hanya 7-10% org di dunia ni kidal..bangga nye aku. huhu~ 

kidal ni banyak disadvantage die dari segi alatan2 tangan ni. mcm aku nak buang kulit carrot, aku terpakse menarik tools tu ke atas. so kulit2 carrot tu abis terkumpul kat tangan aku instead of jatuh ke bawah. nak bukak tin? lagilah.kalu gune yg lame punye..smpai sudah xberjy sbb ak terpakse mengundur ke blkang.. ah.paham ke korg perasaan org kidal? haha..

tapikan..org kata sape yg kidal ni otak die pndai sket.. n creative..haha..sile tunjuk sket pojiah..

           

    

 

TADA~ inilah dia 4 lecturer kelas ‘Engineer in Society’ aku yg encem. ak bosan xbape cam sgt derang so aku lukis muke derang dalam kelas. setiap minggu lecturer ni akan rotate mengajar smpai la minggu ke 14. eh satu lagi lecturer aku xlukis. ponteng lupe kot.

haha.aku da agak da..korang kate buruk ea..tape2..

 

 [permudahkanlah urusanku Ya Allah..]

-counting days in UTP…  happy or sad?-

semalam kubica dan nick heidfield datang UTP tronoh buat pertama kali dalam sejarah. pertama kali aku dengar berita ini hati aku tidak keruan. sudah sepuluh tahun aku menanam minatku terhadap F1.

setiap hari aku dalam diam menghitung hari. 4,3,2,1…

hari yang sepatutnya aku bersiap-siap ponteng-semua-kelas-dan-pura-pura-pergi-irc-tapi-sebenarnya-ingin-berkampung-di-chancellor-hall-untuk-berjumpa-buah-hati..Tapi sebaliknya yang berlaku. aku pergi ke kelas seperti biasa.selepas kelas, aku balik ke bilik seperti tiada apa yang berlaku di bumi tronoh yang gersang ini.

Di dalam lif, di kelas, di cafe malahan di yahoo messenger! orang bising bertanya padaku..

“Tak pergi ke?patut kelas cancel je arini”..

“Eh, kubica nak race dah.tayah gi kelas”..

“Wah.seronoknya bergambar dengan Nick”..

Aku pekakkan telinga. Aku offlinekan ym ku. Sambil memegang result fypku, aku menapak pergi mengadap SV ku.. alhamdulillah..setel

 

hari ini adik kecil ku menelefonku.ah.kali terakhir dia mendail nombor ku adalah 3tahun yang lepas..soalan pertamanya

“Kubica dtg Tronoh ke kakyah? sape lagi datang?nick heidfield?kimi?

tiba2.aku terkesima..hatiku memberontak. kenape? kenape? kenape aku tak pergi semalam? ..

aku tipu diri sendri..minatku kpd F1 sudah pudar kononnya..argh! masakan pudar..selagi ada nick heidfield..selagi ada petronas..akan ku support smpai akhirnya..

sudahla fauziah.sudah semester terakhir. mungkin tahun hadapan F1 sudah tiada. mungkin tiada lagi Petronas menaja.mungkin tiada lagi nick heidfield dalam team. tiada lagi peluang kedua.  :(

aku cemburu siapa yang dapat menatap muka nick

aku cemburu siapa yang dapat bergmbar dengan kubica

aku cemburu siapa yang dapat berborak dengan F1 engineer

aku cemburu siapa yang dapat melihat F1 car berpusing2 di jalan UTP

ye.aku memang kuat cemburu!

 

huh~

 

p/s: semua ini duniawi semata..

Another one more night to go before i end up my holiday at home.so i start to open my FYP folder. then i open google, ..i try to figure out what is the most correct magic word that can help to cover my not-so-successful fyp research. all of sudden, my head speaks, “Should i do this at home?” this is soo not me. i know i will be down within a second after i put in my head :|FYP=disaster| .

My friend told me that CUTI means stop doing any work that relates to stress..i mean STOP thinking about works. i mean GO have fun. I should listen to him..aa

my dad sat in front of me.telling me stuffs that any dad will always said to her daughter. i listened. but my heart ached.. fighting between wanna-laze-around and u-should-working-out-something mood. well.i guess i need to add some dialog 

dad: ayah tgk foziah ni xpenah bersungguh. hidup senang je ayah tgk. kita kene tunjuk effort. jangan nak have fun je. da besar panjang..etc.

me: mmm…

struggling2..argh. article ni xleh bukak plak..

“hidup senang je ayah tgk..tak macam ayah dulu….”

hah? senang..? 

me: tade la senang. tamo tunjuk je.takkan nak stress je.nnti tak dapat lak nak menikmati hidup ni..

i should say something else..but then it just came out.

my life’s never been easier. i just dont want to show it. just smile and finish ur work. [moto hidupku] 

actually, i always get or do something that i really hate. 

i dun like wearing bj kurung but i did..

i dun like travelling but i did quite alot..

someone said to me

 tamo buat sudah! tade sape pakse pon.

argh.please2 anyone. i need someone to understand me. i have a very complex personality which nobody including me understand it. let me do what i wanna do. thats how i live. coz i know ALLAH will guide me, between right n wrong.

Mayb thats the reason why i’m scared to make any wish. because i know somthing the opposite will happen. sometimes i like to do something that opposite to what i want because i want the opposite to happen. complex2.-_-”

im down rite now.

-i cannot watch gg ep19

-my 4th earphone rosak sebelah agi

 

 

 

oh i know why i down.. i didnt pray Isyak yet..uff~ 

[doabyk2kasitenanghatimurahrezekipermudahkanurusanduniadanakhiratamin..]

“Cinta kita akan seteguh KLCC..”

kata2 itu aku amek dari muvee melayu..(uwek2)

ada apa ngn klcc? hurm..

1994:masa aku kecil2 dulu…aku suka ikut ayahku ke site ofis.main nyorok2..hehe.tiba2 aku ternampak replica bangunan tggi..

me: Ayah.ni ape?

ayah: ni PETRONAS Twin Tower. tak lame lagi adala..kene tggu

me:ooo.macam yah ngn jah la. tapi yg ni same tggi..hehe

1996: due tahun kot tggu..akhirnya dr base smpai la puncak tajam tu aku tggu..akhirnya siap. ayah ajak aku naik bangunan tu. sbenarnye luar je siap..dalam still dlm construction. aku nek gune lif laju woo. lif tu condition die mcm xsiap. ade due pit stop, kt bridge dan level plg tggi. kat bridge..aku pegang tiang2 kat ctu..terasa angin.gayat~ kat level 88 plak, aku nampak selat melaka. ayah kate ni ofis Dr. M nnti. ooo~

1998: klcc da siap! tiap2 mggu gi cni. suka main kat park.sonok!.hehe..orang kampung datang misti bwk g sni..

1999: ayah aku jd imam masjid klcc..so time bulan pose, tiap2 malam g sane..setiap sudut masjid tu ak n adik2 aku penah selit ..hehe. pernah gak bukak pose ngn imam2 masjid kt sane.siap masak roti john & popia lagi untuk derang. yg best kene puji =)

2003: aku dah busan ngn bangunan ni..haha. byk org2 indon.rimas. tahun ni klcc da start buat konsert. cambese.ayah aku ajak. tiap2 tahun dpt tmpat duduk VIP. penah gak dok ngan ex PM, PM, and future PM..haha. ade gak insiden2 xleh lupa bila afiq penah menari2 depan VIP dengan zip tak tutup..rmai lak cameraman gelak..ades..haha..seb bek umo die 4tahun ..dimaafkan.

2008: lame x gi cni.aku datang balik. tapi as an intern! aku gune balik lif yang aku penah gune dulu.lain sangat. hehe. tiap2 hari aku bangun before subuh lagi untuk siap2 nak gi klcc.balik plak lepas xnmpak matahari..penat. macam2 kenangan pahit manis ada..

“dalam hati yg fragile ini aku pernah berkata..aku takkan dan tak mahu kerja lagi dicni..”

2009: aku jejakkan lg dsini..dengan berat hati.berdebar..teruja..suma ada.. aku jumpa balik sv aku yang kasi aku A- dulu..

 sv: eh.watpe datang cni.kata tanak dah dtg dah

me: (ee..bencinye.suda gahru bertanye pule)..nak mintak recommendation letter..eh dgr cite dpt jd manager..nape bos kat cni lagi ?  (laser2..haha)

sv: em2.. mane surat tu..? bos da jumpe?

 me: dah..(tersnyum.hehe )

surprisingly aku tak takut ngn die lg..haha(gelak evil)..

Aku terfikir seketika..mana mungkin aku nak buang semua kenangan ni kerana sedikit kenangan pahit dcni.. part of my life is written here..banyak kenangan aku dgn ayahku dcni walaupon ayah seorang yang sangat busy.  

okayla..aku tak kisah dah keje kat mane2 pun..huhu =)

 Satu hari tu, aku borak2 dengan kawan sekolah ku. Dia kata muka ku xpernah berubah sejak dulu smpai sekarang.

YEKE?

okay..cuba lihat d bawah ini..

2004

2005

2006

2007

2008

 

dan 2009…jengjengjeng

 2009

 

hahahaha..mmg xberubah..ades -_-”

 

 

Comel x afiq saye..? ngee~..picture ni diambil ms jln2 d klcc.umo mcm 5tahun je taim ni..skg dia dah darjah 4.pengawas lg. hehe =)

nampak innocent kan? sebenarnye dia ni nakal sgt2. tapi klaka. ya.itu yg penting.noti but funny! misti a dia ikut perangai kakak n abg2 nya..haha

mase die kecik, dia suke tanye soklan2 kat aku.

 

pada hari sabtu yg tenang.sedang aku asyik tgk hindustan. afiq datang duduk di sebelah aku..

afiq: kakyah.nak tanye..

me: pe? (smbil mengunyah2 kerepek)

afiq:kak yah ada boifren?

me: tade. 

afiq: nape?

me: da break

afiq: nape break?

me: dia ada pompuan lain

afiq: nape dia ada pompuan lain?

me: sebab pompuan tu lagi lawa

afiq: kakyah lawa pe. 

me: em.misti ar (tersedak.smbil minum air)

afiq: sian kakyah. tape. afiq ada. kakak kawen ngn abe ngoh, kak jah kawen ngn abang chik.kakyah kawen ngn afiq ea!

 

aku memusing kepalaku kearah nya..mukanya yang sayu membuatkan aku geram..xsemena2 kepala afiq ku sekeh2 smbil benjol..

ish..budak ni kan ..haha~

 

ah.rindu afiq yg dulu. cpt betukar menjadi baby blk~~