Another one more night to go before i end up my holiday at home.so i start to open my FYP folder. then i open google, ..i try to figure out what is the most correct magic word that can help to cover my not-so-successful fyp research. all of sudden, my head speaks, “Should i do this at home?” this is soo not me. i know i will be down within a second after i put in my head :|FYP=disaster| .

My friend told me that CUTI means stop doing any work that relates to stress..i mean STOP thinking about works. i mean GO have fun. I should listen to him..aa

my dad sat in front of me.telling me stuffs that any dad will always said to her daughter. i listened. but my heart ached.. fighting between wanna-laze-around and u-should-working-out-something mood. well.i guess i need to add some dialog 

dad: ayah tgk foziah ni xpenah bersungguh. hidup senang je ayah tgk. kita kene tunjuk effort. jangan nak have fun je. da besar panjang..etc.

me: mmm…

struggling2..argh. article ni xleh bukak plak..

“hidup senang je ayah tgk..tak macam ayah dulu….”

hah? senang..? 

me: tade la senang. tamo tunjuk je.takkan nak stress je.nnti tak dapat lak nak menikmati hidup ni..

i should say something else..but then it just came out.

my life’s never been easier. i just dont want to show it. just smile and finish ur work. [moto hidupku] 

actually, i always get or do something that i really hate. 

i dun like wearing bj kurung but i did..

i dun like travelling but i did quite alot..

someone said to me

 tamo buat sudah! tade sape pakse pon.

argh.please2 anyone. i need someone to understand me. i have a very complex personality which nobody including me understand it. let me do what i wanna do. thats how i live. coz i know ALLAH will guide me, between right n wrong.

Mayb thats the reason why i’m scared to make any wish. because i know somthing the opposite will happen. sometimes i like to do something that opposite to what i want because i want the opposite to happen. complex2.-_-”

im down rite now.

-i cannot watch gg ep19

-my 4th earphone rosak sebelah agi

 

 

 

oh i know why i down.. i didnt pray Isyak yet..uff~ 

[doabyk2kasitenanghatimurahrezekipermudahkanurusanduniadanakhiratamin..]